“Maybe you’re reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it’s time, you’ll know”
This is from Katy Perry’s song Firework, maybe you’ve heard it. 🙂 I love this song and when I heard it yesterday and it made me think of this journey I’m on with my voice-less-ness. I was sharing with Stacey Hall this morning that I’m feeling like my journey with voice-less-ness is similar to that which grief takes on. After all, I’ve “lost” my voice, right? So I thought about it: first I was in denial that I could possibly be without a voice for so long, then the anger showed up (that was this past week), right now I’m in a bit of a lull, after the anger subsided (whew!). Hmmm.
As I’ve reflected further on my journey and where I am now versus where I was four months ago when I first lost my voice, I think of my condition in terms of the five stages of grief (whether or not the next stage I go through is bargaining remains to be seen, I’ll keep you posted) and it also correlates with Stacey’s book, Chi-To-Be! Achieving Your Ultimate B-All (get your copy here: http://www.gofundme.com/Buy-A-Book-To-Save-A-Life), Chapter 3: Tending to Our Goals and the Stages of Growth: Seeding, Sprouting, Blooming and Resting (pages 44-48). I am reflecting on being in a stage of resting in both denial and anger…perhaps I’m seeding in the next three stages of grief for the loss of my voice: bargaining, depression and acceptance. Perhaps I’m already starting to sprout in acceptance and bargaining and depression won’t really surface so much. I know that I am on this journey for a reason. So, for now at least, the right door hasn’t been opened to the perfect road as Katy Perry sings above in her song, however, when the time is right, I’ll know…
This discovery and correlation was a big discovery for me today as I prepared to write this week’s book quote and I’m excited to see where the journey takes me next.
I encourage you to challenge that which you might be resisting and look at it from a different perspective—maybe all the doors are closed so you could open the one that leads you to your perfect road. <3